“I’ve come to realize that you can’t depend upon other people for what you want, and you can’t be scared to go out there and get it. You have to dream hard, wish big, and chase after your goals, because no one else is going to do it for you. And even if things don’t work out, you’ll always be able to say you tried.”
In the last year alone, I have grown so incredibly much that when I try to think back on where I was 1 year ago today, to where I am right this moment — it literally makes my head spin. I have been doing a lot of reflecting on myself, where I am now — how far I have come & where I’d still like to go… In doing so I have realized many things:
As we grow up we (generally speaking) become a better friend. As children we tend to take our friendships for granted. It is so easy to make friends as a child. Everywhere you go there are people who are new to the situation along with you. In school, there are people everywhere you go, who are looking to reach out to one another. As adults, we tend to be more set in our ways. A lot of people have their groups of close friends and are completely content in that bubble, not looking to expand. It becomes sort of awkward. So we treasure the friendships that have made it through all the bumps in the road. We stop thinking so much about our selves and realize that there is more to life than what we want.
We absolutely get more beautiful with age! I think a lot of that has to do with becoming more comfortable in our own skin, and realizing that we can’t change what we have, so we might as well embrace it! Also that for the most part, we gain confidence in ourselves.
We care a crap ton (yes, this is the technical term) less about what others think. You simply can not expect to please everyone. Just stop trying, because you’re wasting valuable energy. Plus, if you haven’t made at least one hater along the way, you’re not doing it right! All we can strive for is to be good human beings and ignore the mean people. They are everywhere. They will design reasons to harass, even when there is no truth behind it.
The Bad/The Ugly
Love hurts. Heartbreak is not the only reason that love hurts. The sanction of love — truly hurts. It hurts your pride, your selfish desires, your self identity. In theory it really seems so easy.. ” I’m in love with Z, so whenever he wants or needs something I’ll be willing to give up my tasks at hand for him” I thought my love for Zack would make me WANT to become selfless. The past few weeks have shown me that my love for myself is a hardy & poisonous weed, often trying to choke out & overpower my love for my fiance. This makes me sad. Literally — I have cried many tears over this. It makes me utterly ashamed. But, that is the beauty of commitment. I can be selfish, and irrational at times, and Z will still look at me with adoring eyes, and understanding. This does not mean that I don’t frustrate him to the ends of the world some times, this does not mean that I am never disappointed with him… It just means we have security, and we love each other inside and out. The good, the bad, the ugly. We’ll be there through it all!
There are truly bad people in this world! This breaks my heart. I want to believe and see the good in everyone. However, life has tainted me into automatically being a skeptic at times. This, is crushing to me. It is horrible to me that when someone does something bad, I can only think “why am I not surprised” ….How awful!
Greed will bury even the lucky, eventually. Perhaps this is a good and a bad. I’m not even sure at this point. But, I have seen kind hearted people get wrapped up in greed and competition, only for it to fall back in their face & destroy everything they worked for. Greed, my friends, will destroy this world faster than anything else, natural or man made, can.
WHAT have YOU learned about life, recently?