It’s hard to put any of this into words. It has been bouncing around in my brain all of my life. I just don’t talk about it often, if ever, on the blog.
I have intense passion for so many things in life. So many very different things. It’s been this way, all my life. Since I can remember. I have always wanted to do 1 million different things and live in 1 million different places. AT THE SAME TIME. Obviously, this isn’t possible….
It totally jacked me up along the journey to adulthood. This desire to do and see everything. I started my college career going to community college with intent to go for interior design.. You see, at that time writing was my true passion but I always thought I could never get anywhere with it. I had this image of writers not being very well off. Struggling. We struggled growing up, I don’t want to struggle the rest of my life.
When I moved to TX I quickly realized my passion was food. I had always loved my restaurant jobs. I loved cooking and creating in the kitchen.. I went through the motions and obtained my Associates Degree in Culinary Arts. While going to school I had a great job at the Corporate Headquarters of a casual dining restaurant chain. It was an incredible opportunity. I was mentoring under the VP of Marketing. I was learning what goes into designing menus, and promotional loyalty perks. It was first hand experience in something I had no idea was so freaking cool. Before continuing on to get my Bachelors, I started going to UNT to continue on for my food marketing degree. Best of both worlds?
No. After 2 years behind a desk, learning so much and really enjoying what I was doing. It became very very apparent I am not going to be able to spend the rest of my career behind a desk. No way. No how. I can’t do it…. So I withdrew from college before I wasted more money until I truly figured out what It was I want to do.
But when I really, truly think about it… I can’t imagine myself doing anything for the rest of my life. One career. One job. One thing I do day in and day out. One city. ONE HOUSE. Oh my lawd, I can’t even imagine. I can’t. Sounds absolutely dreadful.
I get stir crazy. After about a year someplace I am itching for more. Itching for a new city….I know….Grow up, Charlotte. People say that. I know this. But, why am I expected to do something for the rest of my life that I’m not stoked about? Why don’t I deserve to find something that absolutely makes me tick?
Travel makes me tick. Nothing in this world makes me feel quite the way traveling does. Experiencing a new place for the first time. Taking it all in when you first walk out of an airport to a city you’ve never been, taking in the scent. Interacting with people and learning new cultures. Feeling completely out of place and like you’ve never belonged somewhere more, in your entire life at the exact same time. Almost every single trip I’ve ever been on (excluding parts of Mexico…) I’ve left thinking “OH MY GOD I NEED TO LIVE THERE”
However, traveling for a living is unfortunately not very easy to do. If only I could get paid to travel around and write blog posts about my experiences, run and hike on every continent…. Le sigh.
But — other than the life of my daydreams, I keep going back to food, so I know that it’s the safest bet. I hate the idea of landing on a “safety” net… But, it is something I’m passionate about. Something that I’m naturally pretty good at… There are so many ways I can use my degree in culinary, and once I graduate — my degree in Dietetics. I can move to any country in the world, and well — everybody eats right?! I can write about nutrition, I can work in restaurants, I can do something super awesome and not mentioned (hint hint)
The next move is Austin. Where we start our first chapter as “The Fowlers” There are some great things in the plans for that chapter. But I still know that its only a matter of time before I’m itching for that new place again…. & It literally nearly kills me knowing I still have 10 months (and counting) left in Baltimore. I slightly loathe this city…
But, that’s that, and there is no changing the next 10 months. Only thing I can do is make the best of it. Wedding & career moves should keep me busy & help the time pass quickly!