I have been completely off my game the past two weeks. As far as living a healthy lifestyle.
I could blame it on the traveling, the juggling of two jobs, the stresses of life. But the truth is, I’m just TIRED
I’m so tired, all the time. I wake up so stiff that lately, I at least have been going to the early Hot Vinyasa class at Charm City Yoga. I start the day with a nice sweat, but that’s about it. I barely eat during the day while working on my feet allllll day. By the time I get out of work I’m starving & exhausted. My feet hurt, my back is all kinds of locked up, my stomach is screaming for food. Cooking is the last thing I want to do, after doing it at work all day. So, I grab something quick & head straight for the couch.
I’m so tired that I can’t even find motivation. I set my alarm to get in an early run and quickly decide an extra hour of sleep is necessary to get through 10+ hours of working in a fast pace job.
I used to fit it all in. When I was growing up I juggled going to school every day, and gymnastics training. Usually training 6 days a week. I lived in that gym more than I did my own house. My coach, Winnie was dubbed “mom #2″. But it wasn’t until I had a conversation with a friend on twitter, during the Women’s Gymnastics All Around Qualification a few nights ago that I finally truly understood it.
Back when I was training at the ‘elite’ level, I knew nothing else. At the age of 3 I was introduced to sports, recreationally doing soccer. By 6 I was in gymnastics, and soon after was a member of a USA gymnastics qualified competitive team.
By the time I qualified to compete at the national level, and really step up my game.. I knew nothing else. That was life to me. 5-6 days of training while balancing school, homework, and friends.
When my knee blew out, and I couldn’t compete for the first time in my … Life, really. I got a taste very quickly of what it was like to be a 16 year old girl. I returned to gymnastics for a bit after I healed but was never the same gymnast.
I didn’t have to try to balance when it was all I knew. Once I had a taste of freedom my ability to balance it became harder.
As adults we have to consciously decide to live a fit and healthy lifestyle.
Sometimes I fail at consciously making the effort. On days when it’s impossible to get a workout in I let that be an excuse rather than make it possible.
Im reminded of that every time I look in the mirror. I weigh more than I ever have in my life. While yes, muscle weighs more than fat… I’m recently very unhappy with what I see when I look in the mirror.
This is my body and I only get one. I’m DECIDING to stop letting myself get in the way of having the happiest and healthiest body I can have.
Im consciously making the decision to life a fit and healthy lifestyle